I thought pretty hard (about 2seconds) on whether to blog about my supervision experience yesterday... While I really ought to be spending my time (wisely!) on writing my thesis, I think I also need to write this down, if only to serve as a reminder of the trials and challenges that come with PhD-hood. And to remind me of the dire consequences when I fail to put my foot down.
As most of you already know, I got dumped by my (now former) principal supervisor.. and my associate supervisor has now taken over as principal. We are in the midst of appointing a new associate, which by next week? I should know the results. For the record, I'm perfectly OK with the swap, in fact, I sincerely believe with the change, I will be pushed and shoved? and highly pressured to finish.. simply because with my now current principal.. whom we shall initial D, is very good at putting (intimidating?) pressure.. whether he realised it or not.
And it's not necessarily a bad thing, considering how I do tend to slack a fair bit (loookies, I'm blogging!). And given that we are not that familiar with each other (in comparison with my former super), I believe the distance will really SHOVE me to write and keep our meetings direct and productive. Right now, it's not the carrot I need... though some scraps (of kindness and understanding) every now and then won't hurt...
Anyways, back to the supervision meeting, I learned that:
I have a right to supervision. 5 months with absolutely NO PhD supervision is very, very, very, very (have I said 'very' already?) bad. You forget where you're going, you get side-tracked, you WILL feel neglected and hurt and a lot of other emo-ness.. and once you sink into a bottomless pit of self-pity.. you are likely to come to the point where you end up telling yourself, SHIT, I'm NOT going to finish on time.
I should have said 'no' so many times and rejected all non-essential tasks. I should not be guilt-ed into doing what is really, not essential at this final stage of my PhD-hood.
I have to take responsibility for my own PhD because really, that's my job. Even though I like to blame my former supervisor for wasting? the last 5mths of my life, I can't. Because I did not say 'no' when I should have. And really, I'm an adult. So I should know better than to blame other for my own f*cked-up.
I do not have time to wallow in any more self-pity. I will do my great big cry AFTER I'm done writing... in the meantime, I will try to be strong, and just write.
Thank the gods for Mayday and their inspiration lyrics.
On that note then, I'm going to be more disciplined. Or try to be anyways. And so here goes logging off Blogger (and Facebook... and MSN). Bye bye world!
It's not quite what you think.. my unimelb email got spammed this morning... and with my thesis not looking so hot at the moment.. despite the weather being VERY HOT.. the job offer is thus.. very tempting indeed. Here is the mail in full.
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As a Mystery Shopper you have only one responsibility: Act as a real customer while evaluating the place you are sent to mystery shop and enjoy all the benefits that go along with your job. Remember that you have nothing to lose, because you are awarded generously for your efforts:
-You get paid between $10 and $40 per hour for each mystery shopping assignment; -You keep all things that you have purchased for free; -You watch movies, eat in restaurants, and visit amusement parks for free; -You are turning your most enjoyable hobby into a well-paying activity.
Be aware that as a Mystery Shopper you can earn on average $100 to $300 per week. The most experienced and hard-working shoppers earn up to $500 weekly. This well-paying job gives you the possibility to visit and observe shops, restaurants, banks, movie theaters, etc. in order to find their flaws and help their owners correct and improve them. You can be a Mystery Shopper whenever you have time, because there is no fixed timetable and you are not obliged to take all the assignments offered.
If you are interested and would like to give a shot to this intriguing job offer, just write me back and I will provide you with more pertinent information.
Good Luck, Dorothy Porter Recruitment Coordinator
If you're interested, why not drop nice Ms Dorothy... and by the way, yes our unimelb anti-spam-ware is not really so realibble la.. one can only wonder how she gained access to my email...
Well.. more specifically, this post is all about the (interpretive!!) findings gleaned from a discourse analysis of the 12th general election.. and from a close reading of focus group discussion transcripts.. Thanks to Esther for inspiring me to put the scribbles into er.. blogspot. XD
So what about them? Well, if we maintain the scribbly format, they look something like this..
Part I. Discourse Analysis
Finding 1: Ethnocentric Nationalism
BN only choice for Malaysians
Opposition threat to unity
Finding 2: New "New" Media
Popular campaign tool
New looks like old
Part II. Ethnographic Analysis
Finding 1: Being Chinese
It's not the school, it's the language
Finding 2: Contested Belonging
Discrimination behind close doors
Finding 3: Mediated Gen Y.. X.. and Z?
What the young are doing with the media
So far things look very organised.. yea? Well, as the cliche goes, looks can be deceiving.. =p
But anyhow, I am making slow progress.. at least I know what I need to write. Each part needs to be at least 20k at length, otherwise DN will kick up a fuss than the thesis does not have adequate original material... so breaking it down to how long each finding needs to be.. well.. you can do the maths yourself.. I'm off to meet the word count.. lolx
Moka has met a new friend named Miko! Miko lives on the 3rd floor of Uropa.. and is really the cutest lil thing.. XD
Despite a rocky start.. or rather a noisy barky start on Miko's end.. both puppies are now fast friends and as you can see from the pictures below.. they have lots and lots of fun playing together!! ^_______^
A week has gone by since the start of the mid-sem break.. and so far it's been a rather good week.
For once, by pretending that the impossibly high stack of essays-that-urgently-need-to-be-marked don't exist, I've managed to do some thesis-ing - read a handful of books.. sorted out the newspapers for further analysis.. and fingers crossed, will actually put in some real word count soon. =)
Awww.. who am I kidding? No way I'm gonna get any writing done. Starting tomorrow I will need to mark them demn papers first.. >.<
But it's not all sad and sad. Managed to squeeze in two (more recent) movies:
1. Up
The start of the sweetest and cutest love story
Kids, do NOT try this at home
I adore Up. It is soooooo amazingly sweet and gorgeous and the old man kinda reminds me of Harrison Ford.. must be the square jaw. lolx
I am also totally in love with the opening short animation of how babies are made. It is too delightful for words. If you hadn't seen it, you HAVE TO. By far my most fave Disney-Pixar production.
Ah, Disney, you've redeemed yourself as a wholesome teary-eyed spot of goodness. FINALLY.
2. Generation Fame
A remake loosely based on the 1980 film.. more drama than High School Musical.. better singing.. much better dancing, and with a waaaaay better looking cast. XD On the whole it's pretty decent watching.. but be prepared for lots of untied loose ends and random/abrupt endings.. what else do you expect for a movie that attempts to squeeze four-years of "life" into 102 minutes?
Movies aside, I also found time to bake my first ever carrot cake. Although the top burned a bit.. at least it looks AND taste like carrot cake.. so am pretty pleased with myself ^o^
Finally, a more updated picture of sweet+cute Moka. Not recent anymore - it was taken 8 Sept, 2009, but at least it's newer than the other ones.
A remake loosely based on the 1980 film.. more drama than High School Musical.. better singing.. much better dancing, and with a waaaaay better looking cast. XD On the whole it's pretty decent watching.. but be prepared for lots of untied loose ends and random/abrupt endings.. what else do you expect for a movie that attempts to squeeze four-years of "life" into 102 minutes?
